I started reading the book that I borrowed from the Library during the night after coming back home at 10pm. One of the chapter that interests me is about how being a new father stirs up thoughts about my relationship with my Dad.
Dad is getting old by days. He is getting slow in thoughts and less agile than before. He seems to be thinking lesser and finding hard to catch up during a family conversation. I think if I am still single or not in a fatherhood position, I can be rather impatient when talking to him as I always have to repeat the same question 2 to 3 times.
While reading this chapter, I started to reflect on how Dad had raised me up. How he would had reacted when he knew my arrival. I'm the third child in the family and we are not well off people, I wonder if he felt anxious about time and finances as what I am going through now?
Mum once showed me a photograph of Dad when he was young, I felt that I look so much like him. When I look at his mannerism and how he treated friends, etc... I felt much like him too. And when I look at him today, I thought that I might be like him in future as well as how I described above?
I certainly do not wish my children to be impatient with me next time. If I love him and care for him today, I will be a good example for my kids in future on how they can take care of me one day too. I should stop doing or saying things that will hurt my parents and love them unconditionally. This is how they loved me in the past as well. I think this is a big lesson that I'd learnt over the past 2 months while preparing for my parenthood.
I will try to ask Dad on what he think he did well as a father and what mistake I should avoid in the future into fatherhood. It might be challenging for him to understand what I want to ask him but I do hope it can help him stimulate his thoughts a bit too. I also hope when the children arrives, he will become more active, think and talk more as well.
Well, today its Felin's official 13th week of pregnancy. By statistics, the baby should be about 7.4cm and weighs 23gm now. We are into the 2nd trimester and the babies will grow really fast from this point onwards.
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