Time really flies and another weekend had passed. Its the final week whereby her sister will be with us. She will be going back Malaysia on 1st July. Before that, Fannie stayed with us for about 2 years in our old house. Its finally back to days where only the 2 of us stay together and its another 6 months before this will ends again. The last time was 3 long years.
I remembered our patchy relationship back then where Felin hated me for having to come home late from work. I was equally guilty where I have to leave her home alone and often she can't even see me when she was going to bed. The arrival of Fannie back then helped somehow. I hope such patchy relationship will not come back after a good 3 years break. May this 6 months be a period where we can enjoy our time, just the 2 of us together before the babies arrive.
Felin saw some urgency on Friday night and went shopping with her sister for some pregnancy clothes. Her clothes are slowly getting tight. She was really happy to have found some cheap and nice clothing in H&M.
The nausea and vomiting are not stopping for her. She is vomiting every morning and occasionally in the evening. It was just last night that she woke up suddenly at 3am, feeling Extremely hungry and I had to cook 2 pieces of Roti Prata for her. I was really sleepy at 3am and felt reluctant to wake up. At 8am sharp, she again commented that she is really very hungry and I quickly drove her out for breakfast. We missed the Church services because she cannot afford to have light breakfast like what we always do in the past.
Her family was here today but I couldn't spend much time with her due to 2 appointments today. I can see that she is really happy when her family are here with her. Hope that my parents will be able to give her the same "Family" feel by the time the babies arrive.
Twice the Joy
Monday, June 30, 2014
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Keeping fit to be ready
I forced myself to jog this morning. I was way behind my "keeping fit" schedule. For the whole month of June, I only went for 2 outdoor jogs and 3 gym sessions. Its like just once a week workout schedule.
My energy level don't seems to improve over the past 1 month and I always have ache on my neck and left hand lately. I also seems to sleep earlier but don't really wake up energetic. Worst of all, my tummy seems to get bigger faster than Felin...
I must get myself ready for the babies by getting fitter, stronger and be physically + mentally ready for lesser sleep and yet able to focus at work. It will be tough days ahead for me and Felin once the baby arrive or even as Felin enters the later pregnancy stages. I must be able to help her to the best that I can.
Its our babies 10th week already. Still got 30 weeks to go. Googled and found that its the size of the Kumquat now. Don't know what it is but below is the picture. (looks quite big to me leh)
I rather Blur Blur and know nothing
"I rather Blur Blur and Know Nothing."
This was the comment I got from Felin after I asked her whether she wants to go for the Oscar scan. During the discussion, I shared with her about my friend's and client's experiences as well as what I read over the night about Oscar scan. She scolded me for telling her all these because she never thought on any possible consequences of seeing bad result and be asked to do a lot more test which ended up we scaring ourselves and money wasted. Her mind is simple, if doctor tell us to do, just do it!
I always thought that it is the woman who will go research, read motherhood forums, do all the reading about pregnancy, etc... but for her, she prefer to be blur blur and know less. Her reasoning is not wrong too. She feels that all these forum only contain negative information and make her worry. All these worries will only affect her pregnancy. Why waste time go see all these?
Well. I think its simply her character. I suddenly remembered the past on how I researched for all the wedding venues/packages in the middle of the night and listened to all sort of march-in music. I remembered how I researched for renovation ideas, getting myself involved in renotalk forums and kept drawing on the floor plan every night. I recalled how I planned for most of the holidays and constantly on look out for all the cheap air tickets. Just to name a few...
She was often the one listening to my presentations and asked me the questions before I went on research again. (Opps... She will surely defend her position if she is to see this post like half a year later...) To be fair, of course she does help me at times for certain issues and she has better judgement in many things than me. All these makes us a good team, isn't it?
I think I'm just a logical person who believes in probability and always wanting to be ready if the negative happens. I like to read, research and discuss in forums. See, I even journaling down all my experiences now.
I need to learn that as a husband, I have to give her more confidence than add anxieties. I should select to share more of the good things than those bad experiences that I read. Its good enough just for me to know and I will only highlight my additional knowledge as and when necessary. She need to see a more fairy-tale like pregnancy environment to make sure the babies arrive safe and sound. (That's the most important!!! Full stop...)
This was the comment I got from Felin after I asked her whether she wants to go for the Oscar scan. During the discussion, I shared with her about my friend's and client's experiences as well as what I read over the night about Oscar scan. She scolded me for telling her all these because she never thought on any possible consequences of seeing bad result and be asked to do a lot more test which ended up we scaring ourselves and money wasted. Her mind is simple, if doctor tell us to do, just do it!
I always thought that it is the woman who will go research, read motherhood forums, do all the reading about pregnancy, etc... but for her, she prefer to be blur blur and know less. Her reasoning is not wrong too. She feels that all these forum only contain negative information and make her worry. All these worries will only affect her pregnancy. Why waste time go see all these?
Well. I think its simply her character. I suddenly remembered the past on how I researched for all the wedding venues/packages in the middle of the night and listened to all sort of march-in music. I remembered how I researched for renovation ideas, getting myself involved in renotalk forums and kept drawing on the floor plan every night. I recalled how I planned for most of the holidays and constantly on look out for all the cheap air tickets. Just to name a few...
She was often the one listening to my presentations and asked me the questions before I went on research again. (Opps... She will surely defend her position if she is to see this post like half a year later...) To be fair, of course she does help me at times for certain issues and she has better judgement in many things than me. All these makes us a good team, isn't it?
I think I'm just a logical person who believes in probability and always wanting to be ready if the negative happens. I like to read, research and discuss in forums. See, I even journaling down all my experiences now.
I need to learn that as a husband, I have to give her more confidence than add anxieties. I should select to share more of the good things than those bad experiences that I read. Its good enough just for me to know and I will only highlight my additional knowledge as and when necessary. She need to see a more fairy-tale like pregnancy environment to make sure the babies arrive safe and sound. (That's the most important!!! Full stop...)
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
My "Initial" impression about OSCAR test
Felin told me that she had arranged for a Trimester Scan last Thursday and brought back a brochure with heading "Screening for Chromosomal Abnormalities". I suspect the scanning will eventually end up with us doing the OSCAR test. This test really rhymes because I seems to hear it quite often from my friends and clients.
OSCAR stands for ‘One-stop Clinic for Assessment of Risk for Fetal Anomalies’. It is a test carried out in the first trimester to screen for the risk of fetal anomalies, particularly for Down’s Syndrome (Trisomy 21). An OSCAR test is optional and is available at all hospitals and involves a Nuchal Translucency (NT) scan and a blood test. Doctor usually schedule it usually between the 11th to 14th week of pregnancy.
I met a lovely couple called Susan and Andy to discuss some insurance stuffs today. Susan is expecting a pair of twin girls at 19th week and she shared her rollercoaster pregnancy journey which only stabilised recently. One of the thing she shared is this OSCAR test which her obtained ratio is 1:250. This ratio seems good but the doctor advised her to do further test like amniocentesis which carry chance of miscarriage like 1:100. They spent several thousands more just to get further opinion and eventually need not go through it.
They told me about another of my friend who had a ratio of 1:90 and was so fearful over the weeks that she kept crying when thinking about it. She went for the Amnio test and suffered the risk and pain. That friend of mine eventually had a beautiful pair of twins too. That friend's sister also went for it and had a ratio as bad as 1:5 but eventually have a healthy baby in the end. These are just some examples I heard in the past and my friends told me that this test is not necessary and will likely end up more stress, anxiety and easily few more thousands to be spent.
I haven't researched much about this and I'm still not too sure what had Felin arranged for. But I hope I don't need to do such a test eventually because the chance of bad result seems high and whether got down syndrome or not, we are keeping the baby, aren't we? Anyway, see what happens in the next 2 weeks.
OSCAR stands for ‘One-stop Clinic for Assessment of Risk for Fetal Anomalies’. It is a test carried out in the first trimester to screen for the risk of fetal anomalies, particularly for Down’s Syndrome (Trisomy 21). An OSCAR test is optional and is available at all hospitals and involves a Nuchal Translucency (NT) scan and a blood test. Doctor usually schedule it usually between the 11th to 14th week of pregnancy.
I met a lovely couple called Susan and Andy to discuss some insurance stuffs today. Susan is expecting a pair of twin girls at 19th week and she shared her rollercoaster pregnancy journey which only stabilised recently. One of the thing she shared is this OSCAR test which her obtained ratio is 1:250. This ratio seems good but the doctor advised her to do further test like amniocentesis which carry chance of miscarriage like 1:100. They spent several thousands more just to get further opinion and eventually need not go through it.
They told me about another of my friend who had a ratio of 1:90 and was so fearful over the weeks that she kept crying when thinking about it. She went for the Amnio test and suffered the risk and pain. That friend of mine eventually had a beautiful pair of twins too. That friend's sister also went for it and had a ratio as bad as 1:5 but eventually have a healthy baby in the end. These are just some examples I heard in the past and my friends told me that this test is not necessary and will likely end up more stress, anxiety and easily few more thousands to be spent.
I haven't researched much about this and I'm still not too sure what had Felin arranged for. But I hope I don't need to do such a test eventually because the chance of bad result seems high and whether got down syndrome or not, we are keeping the baby, aren't we? Anyway, see what happens in the next 2 weeks.
Monday, June 23, 2014
A Tiring but Enjoyable Day
We started our day having Tim Sum and Bee Hoon at Elias Mall for breakfast. Felin is trying to keep her diet healthier and she is worried that baby can grow too big. She complained that she is not able to wear many of her clothes already despite barely passed 9 week of pregnancy.
I then went to office to prepare for Sunday's appointment before having cell group at our entertainment room. I was in charge of worship songs today and we sang "For all you've done", "So you would come" and "What Faith can Do". It was an enjoyable CG today, perhaps with the presence of Jimmy and Wong, it adds more masculine presence in the cell.
Felin prefer not to share about her pregnancy yet though I was so tempted to thank God for what he had provided us with the baby when Angeline asked me what I want to thank God most in recent times.
After Cell, we went to Bedok Mall Poulet to celebrate a belated Father's Day. Dad and Mum only ate little bit here and there despite the range of chicken, pork, lamb, beef, escargot, tiramisu, etc.... I think they are simply not too adventurous with food.
I always think that we should have taken more photos during events like this. Its been many years since we last took a family photo. Perhaps next year Dad's birthday, I should arrange for a studio shot for whole family. Mum and Dad are getting old, we must take more pictures while they can still enjoy.
Felin and me then shopped in Bedok trying to find some long dresses which might be suitable for preggy ladies. We also go view some prams and baby beds to have an idea on price of these items. We are just starting out on a bit of shopping and I think we will only be more serious about it as times goes by. Its far too early to purchase anything now.
Our house was in a mess upon reaching home due to the CG this afternoon. I ordered Felin to rest and I did all the cleaning, washing, mopping by myself. What I ordered her is to act like a full time researcher to understand on what to prepare for weeks ahead like gynae package, where to get hands me down clothes and how best she can do to ensure a healthy baby, etc...
We even took some time to think of babies name just before sleeping. I shall share some of our ideas in my next blog post... Its a tiring but enjoyable day where I can spend nearly the whole day with Felin. So happy today...
I then went to office to prepare for Sunday's appointment before having cell group at our entertainment room. I was in charge of worship songs today and we sang "For all you've done", "So you would come" and "What Faith can Do". It was an enjoyable CG today, perhaps with the presence of Jimmy and Wong, it adds more masculine presence in the cell.
Felin prefer not to share about her pregnancy yet though I was so tempted to thank God for what he had provided us with the baby when Angeline asked me what I want to thank God most in recent times.
After Cell, we went to Bedok Mall Poulet to celebrate a belated Father's Day. Dad and Mum only ate little bit here and there despite the range of chicken, pork, lamb, beef, escargot, tiramisu, etc.... I think they are simply not too adventurous with food.
I always think that we should have taken more photos during events like this. Its been many years since we last took a family photo. Perhaps next year Dad's birthday, I should arrange for a studio shot for whole family. Mum and Dad are getting old, we must take more pictures while they can still enjoy.
Felin and me then shopped in Bedok trying to find some long dresses which might be suitable for preggy ladies. We also go view some prams and baby beds to have an idea on price of these items. We are just starting out on a bit of shopping and I think we will only be more serious about it as times goes by. Its far too early to purchase anything now.
Our house was in a mess upon reaching home due to the CG this afternoon. I ordered Felin to rest and I did all the cleaning, washing, mopping by myself. What I ordered her is to act like a full time researcher to understand on what to prepare for weeks ahead like gynae package, where to get hands me down clothes and how best she can do to ensure a healthy baby, etc...
We even took some time to think of babies name just before sleeping. I shall share some of our ideas in my next blog post... Its a tiring but enjoyable day where I can spend nearly the whole day with Felin. So happy today...
Friday, June 20, 2014
9th week passed
This week have been particularly busy for me in the office and time seems to fly so easily that another weeks is going to pass. Felin was always sound asleep when I reached home and by the time I woke up, she is already off to work. What a lousy husband I am, I think I really did a bad job. What she said last week about me is just so true.
I still have problem waking up at 7am as I never need to do that over my past 10 years in my current profession. I had set alarm over the last few days at 7am but I ended up switching it off and carry on with my beauty sleep. I need to work harder to re-tune my schedule or else I can't spend enough time with Felin and also I'll still need learn to adapt before the babies arrive anyway.
Visited quite a few clients with infant recently. I somehow felt more deeply than before on their joy with their new addition to the family. I am also quite envious that most of them have parental support and that they are managing only 1 baby. Yet, I'm still hearing how tired they are and how tough it is, etc...
Mum still can't promise if she is able to help us by then. Her presence is still needed in the hawker stall when they move to the new hawker centre sometime in October this year. As the saying goes, 车到山前必有路, 船到桥头自然直. When we get to the mountain, there'll be a way through and when the boat gets to the pier-head, it will go straight with the current. No point in worrying until it actually happens.
Well. We just passed the 9th week point yesterday. There are like 2 grapes in Felin's womb now. I think its probably similar to 12th weeks for those with single foetus. Let us recap the development for a 9th week baby and how amazing God is with his creation...
I still have problem waking up at 7am as I never need to do that over my past 10 years in my current profession. I had set alarm over the last few days at 7am but I ended up switching it off and carry on with my beauty sleep. I need to work harder to re-tune my schedule or else I can't spend enough time with Felin and also I'll still need learn to adapt before the babies arrive anyway.
Visited quite a few clients with infant recently. I somehow felt more deeply than before on their joy with their new addition to the family. I am also quite envious that most of them have parental support and that they are managing only 1 baby. Yet, I'm still hearing how tired they are and how tough it is, etc...
Mum still can't promise if she is able to help us by then. Her presence is still needed in the hawker stall when they move to the new hawker centre sometime in October this year. As the saying goes, 车到山前必有路, 船到桥头自然直. When we get to the mountain, there'll be a way through and when the boat gets to the pier-head, it will go straight with the current. No point in worrying until it actually happens.
Well. We just passed the 9th week point yesterday. There are like 2 grapes in Felin's womb now. I think its probably similar to 12th weeks for those with single foetus. Let us recap the development for a 9th week baby and how amazing God is with his creation...
Monday, June 16, 2014
More relieved after today's checkup
Felin complained that she felt quite a bit of pain on her right side, near her waistline over the past 3 days and the pain was more distinct yesterday. We tried looking in the internet for any gynae that is opened on Sunday but realised that all the closed. I told her to wait till Monday and see if she can see Prof early in the morning.
She arranged for a 11am appointment and I was constantly waiting for her call to hear the result of the check-up. When she informed me at 12noon that everything is okay, I felt really relieved. Prof actually even told her not to worry too much and commented that the heartbeats are really strong. He then took an ultrasound picture for Felin.
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She was told that the size and heartbeat are actually of 9 weeks baby. Happy to hear that because its like they are 3 days older than I thought now. Haha... Every single day matters to me.
I shared my joy with a client today and she taught me to how to help Felin de-stress and described how woman can have mood swings from 4th month onwards. I was not supposed to share this with others yet but I was too excited to share with her today and to hear her advice.
Will continue to pray for good health of mother and babies...
She arranged for a 11am appointment and I was constantly waiting for her call to hear the result of the check-up. When she informed me at 12noon that everything is okay, I felt really relieved. Prof actually even told her not to worry too much and commented that the heartbeats are really strong. He then took an ultrasound picture for Felin.
She was told that the size and heartbeat are actually of 9 weeks baby. Happy to hear that because its like they are 3 days older than I thought now. Haha... Every single day matters to me.
I shared my joy with a client today and she taught me to how to help Felin de-stress and described how woman can have mood swings from 4th month onwards. I was not supposed to share this with others yet but I was too excited to share with her today and to hear her advice.
Will continue to pray for good health of mother and babies...
Father's Day
Its Father's Day yesterday and I really hope that this will be my first Father's Day. Why I say "Hope"? Its because there is always this feeling or rather fear within me that the babies don't go beyond this 12 weeks. I really can't wait the day they safely arrive into this world. I can't imagine the day they came and how relieve I will be. Its really like waiting for them every single day and God just have to remind me to be patient and trust on him. There is so little I can do and its all upon God's ability.
We went JB early in the morning 7:30am. I slept at about 4am the night before because I went office to prepare for my Monday's appointment and finished at 2am. I then went search for the Punggol Nasi Lemak as I know Felin will be hungry after failing to eat the dinner that I cooked the night before. She also have a craving for Nasi Lemak recently.
I got lost on the road but got back just in time as Felin was just awake at 3+am and feeling hungry. We had a fattening supper. haha...
The journey to JB was smooth and we had Bak Tuk Teh breakfast with her family. We then went Taman Molek for some banking stuffs before for seafood lunch at Pasir Gudang. It was nice meeting Jia Xiang and Jia Xing and see how fast they had grown. Xiang is getting taller by day and in no time should outgrow me soon. Both of them reminds me that Parenthood is a long journey and Winnie/HP are now in an entire different stage as compared to the stage I will be entering soon.
The lunch was yummy, MIL kept saying things that seemingly hint to the others about Felin's pregnancy like "You can eat this meh?", "You got take Medicine or not?", "This one don't eat better!", etc... I actually prefer to keep as low profile as possible before the babies haven't crossed the 12th weeks point yet.
We went back home for a short rest. I even took a short nap before we got ourselves ready to go back Singapore. The journey is again smooth and easy without really heavy traffic.
Once home, I quickly started vacuum and mop the floor and washed the bathroom. I was really dead tired and fall asleep as early as 10pm. That's why I only wrote this post today after a good 5km run in the gym just now.
We went JB early in the morning 7:30am. I slept at about 4am the night before because I went office to prepare for my Monday's appointment and finished at 2am. I then went search for the Punggol Nasi Lemak as I know Felin will be hungry after failing to eat the dinner that I cooked the night before. She also have a craving for Nasi Lemak recently.
I got lost on the road but got back just in time as Felin was just awake at 3+am and feeling hungry. We had a fattening supper. haha...
The journey to JB was smooth and we had Bak Tuk Teh breakfast with her family. We then went Taman Molek for some banking stuffs before for seafood lunch at Pasir Gudang. It was nice meeting Jia Xiang and Jia Xing and see how fast they had grown. Xiang is getting taller by day and in no time should outgrow me soon. Both of them reminds me that Parenthood is a long journey and Winnie/HP are now in an entire different stage as compared to the stage I will be entering soon.
The lunch was yummy, MIL kept saying things that seemingly hint to the others about Felin's pregnancy like "You can eat this meh?", "You got take Medicine or not?", "This one don't eat better!", etc... I actually prefer to keep as low profile as possible before the babies haven't crossed the 12th weeks point yet.
We went back home for a short rest. I even took a short nap before we got ourselves ready to go back Singapore. The journey is again smooth and easy without really heavy traffic.
Once home, I quickly started vacuum and mop the floor and washed the bathroom. I was really dead tired and fall asleep as early as 10pm. That's why I only wrote this post today after a good 5km run in the gym just now.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Healthy food wasted
I cooked a more healthy dinner for Felin today after eating all the junk food over the past few days. She was sleeping as I was cooking. I cooked steamed fish, Stirred fried vegetables and brown rice porridge today.
I spent considerable time preparing, cooking, washing dishes and cleaning cooking area but end up she just took a few mouthful of the porridge and said that she can't finish it. I ended up eating most of the food on the table. Pretty felt that my effort are wasted.
She is really picky about food. Unhealthy food can eat easily, Healthy ones a bit more difficult.
She commented that the baby most likely be a boy because boys like junk food more than girls. Well... Good attempt to guess the gender of the babies.
I spent considerable time preparing, cooking, washing dishes and cleaning cooking area but end up she just took a few mouthful of the porridge and said that she can't finish it. I ended up eating most of the food on the table. Pretty felt that my effort are wasted.
She is really picky about food. Unhealthy food can eat easily, Healthy ones a bit more difficult.
She commented that the baby most likely be a boy because boys like junk food more than girls. Well... Good attempt to guess the gender of the babies.
Saturday, June 14, 2014
All the unhealty food
Woke up at 7+am when Felin complained that she is hungry again. She feels like eating Nasi Lemak today. I quickly checked out the internet and found out that the Punggol and Chong Pang Nasi Lemak opens only during the evening and hence shelved off the idea. As she was really hungry and started vomiting, we decided to just buy the $2 Nasi Lemak from Old Chang Kee. Its actually one of our favourite Nasi Lemak over the years. Cheap and good.
We then had a nice breakfast at the poolside enjoying the kids learning swimming in the cool early morning. Its so much better than travelling long distance in the early morning.
Shortly after breakfast, we went back home to sleep and till 12:30pm. In no time, its time for lunch. I suggested going to Bedok Central Hawker Centre for lunch. We had the Curry Chicken Bee Hoon and Mum's Hokkien Mee for Lunch. Stayed at the hawker centre to chat with mum and friends there before going to Bedok Mall MaCafe for coffee. She is shopping now as I'm secretly writing this blog.
Seriously, if we continue to eat like this in accordance to Felin's craving, we will really grow fat very very fast. Got to think of a solution soon...
Not really been happy with myself lately. I haven't been exercising according to my plan, haven't start my public speaking practice, haven't register for my ChFC course, haven't been productive with my time in my work, still with plenty of backlog and yet still feeling guilty that I haven't spend enough time with Felin. Haiz... It seems like time is never enough...
We then had a nice breakfast at the poolside enjoying the kids learning swimming in the cool early morning. Its so much better than travelling long distance in the early morning.
Shortly after breakfast, we went back home to sleep and till 12:30pm. In no time, its time for lunch. I suggested going to Bedok Central Hawker Centre for lunch. We had the Curry Chicken Bee Hoon and Mum's Hokkien Mee for Lunch. Stayed at the hawker centre to chat with mum and friends there before going to Bedok Mall MaCafe for coffee. She is shopping now as I'm secretly writing this blog.
Seriously, if we continue to eat like this in accordance to Felin's craving, we will really grow fat very very fast. Got to think of a solution soon...
Not really been happy with myself lately. I haven't been exercising according to my plan, haven't start my public speaking practice, haven't register for my ChFC course, haven't been productive with my time in my work, still with plenty of backlog and yet still feeling guilty that I haven't spend enough time with Felin. Haiz... It seems like time is never enough...
Friday, June 13, 2014
Durians and Bird Nests from Dad and Mum
Singapore registered its strongest wind over 30 years last night. Many tress were uprooted and Felin and I was scrambling to close all the windows and to bring in my plants during midnight. Because of the Durians that Dad bought for us last night, closing all the windows doesn't really help as the strong durian smell makes Felin nausea. I have to balance opening the balcony window slightly and yet fear that rain can potentially get into the house. This adjustment of windows thingy make me wake up quite a few times over that 15 minutes period.
Dad was quite nice that he bought one small box of 猫山王榴莲 and one small box of 金凤榴莲 for us and it cost about $50 for that 2 small boxes. As for mum, she had prepared 3 tubs of birdnest as mentioned yesterday. Felin had consumed one tub and completed all the durian as of today already. Mum specifically told me that the birdnest are for Felin and not for me. : (.
She told us that she had already purchased the whole 8 months supply of the birdnest already for her. So touching from Dad's and Mum's little gestures...
Today, I paid $20 for my car day license and went for appointment at Hazel Park Terrace and after appointment, I decided to go fetch Felin from work so that she can have a comfortable ride back home. My appointment ended at about 5pm and the timing seems just right.
I accompanied her to NUH for some checkup before going for dinner there. We reached home pretty early at around 8:30pm, watched TV, relax and she slept early. It seems to be a peaceful day indeed.
Don't know why, I seems to be worried for Felin and babies every single day. I afraid that they don't go through the Trimester period like what happened in the past. Felin told me that her right side seems to have a bit of tightness and we just have to monitor closely on it. Though I do pray for them daily, the fear don't seems to get away that easily. Hope all will goes well this time...
Dad was quite nice that he bought one small box of 猫山王榴莲 and one small box of 金凤榴莲 for us and it cost about $50 for that 2 small boxes. As for mum, she had prepared 3 tubs of birdnest as mentioned yesterday. Felin had consumed one tub and completed all the durian as of today already. Mum specifically told me that the birdnest are for Felin and not for me. : (.
She told us that she had already purchased the whole 8 months supply of the birdnest already for her. So touching from Dad's and Mum's little gestures...
Today, I paid $20 for my car day license and went for appointment at Hazel Park Terrace and after appointment, I decided to go fetch Felin from work so that she can have a comfortable ride back home. My appointment ended at about 5pm and the timing seems just right.
I accompanied her to NUH for some checkup before going for dinner there. We reached home pretty early at around 8:30pm, watched TV, relax and she slept early. It seems to be a peaceful day indeed.
Don't know why, I seems to be worried for Felin and babies every single day. I afraid that they don't go through the Trimester period like what happened in the past. Felin told me that her right side seems to have a bit of tightness and we just have to monitor closely on it. Though I do pray for them daily, the fear don't seems to get away that easily. Hope all will goes well this time...
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Its 8th week now!!!
Its actually only 8th week and I've been blogging for over a week without Felin knowing about it. This blog is meant to be shown to her only at the final stage before she gives birth. I want to use this to give her the strength in her final journey of pregnancy prior our new life by then.
Its our babies 8th week today, its of the size of a kidney bean. I'm praying hard every day for babies and mum. I just hope the babies will be delivered safe and healthy and mum can enjoy the pregnancy process all the way to labour.
I highlighted to mum today that I'm worried that we are not able to take care of the babies by the time they come. I'm confident if its one baby but with two, I'm really not sure. She told me not to worry and she might stop her work at the hawker centre by then to assist me. She also cooked 3 big tub of bird nest just for Felin today. How envy... Take picture tomorrow and show you.
Its our babies 8th week today, its of the size of a kidney bean. I'm praying hard every day for babies and mum. I just hope the babies will be delivered safe and healthy and mum can enjoy the pregnancy process all the way to labour.
I highlighted to mum today that I'm worried that we are not able to take care of the babies by the time they come. I'm confident if its one baby but with two, I'm really not sure. She told me not to worry and she might stop her work at the hawker centre by then to assist me. She also cooked 3 big tub of bird nest just for Felin today. How envy... Take picture tomorrow and show you.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Hurting words
Initially wanted to write about my meeting with a friend today but hurting words from Felin prompted me to write this first.
She said firmly to me just now "I am not a good husband!"
I felt so sad and I'm really lost over what else she wants me to do more in order that i'm considered good?
She said that I did not accompany her every morning to work and did not offer to drive her to work daily. (I off peak car leh). I reasoned that I worked late most of the days and very tired in the morning and my intention is to convert my off peak car in Nov when her stomach is bigger, thinking that she will get more by then. She just looked at me at an angle, shake head and make a disappointing sound back at me.
Also today, as she was all ready to go work, she said that she wanted to take urgent leave as she was tired. I encouraged her that if she can, don't waste her leave as the pregnancy journey is still long and use it when its more urgent in future.
For these 2 small issues, she refuses to talk to me now as I'm typing this on my phone. Sad that she 冷战 with me over this now...
Should I go work with her every 7am tomorrow onwards? Should I just keep quiet if she says she wanted to take MC or leave?
Am I really a lousy husband? I felt discouraged...
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Super late night sleep
I reached home at 1:30am last night, took my shower and watch TV as I get my body to dry and to eat some snack to fill my stomach. While I was watching TV, Felin suddenly opened the bedroom door and told me that she dislike the feeling that she can't see me when she is about to sleep and still can't see me when she open her eyes in the middle of the night. She watched TV with me for a while and then went back shortly. She then told me that she will make it a point to sleep as early as 9:30pm to 10pm from today onwards and so she will not be seeing me for a long time. Makes me feels bad as I always return home late. Sorry...
It was about 2:30am when I finally got to bed. I was really shagged out and nearly doze off immediately but I noticed Felin was turning and tossing on the bed non stop and suddenly sits up after about 10 minutes. I forced my eyes open and asked her if she is okay. She said her stomach seems a bit odd. Made me worried again and I sat up too, starts talking to her and gradually try to tap her to sleep.
After quite some time, she simply can't get to sleep and I suggested that we go to the balcony to get some fresh air. We sat there for a while before finally got back to bed. It should be nearly 3:30am or 4am by then. I was really dead tired and I finally told her that I'm really very tired and need to sleep. I dozed off immediately and my plan of jogging in the morning was put off.(actually quite happy. lol) I woke up at nearly 10am with a strange headache.
Oh ya. I heard from another friend that morning that she is conceiving twins as well at 16th week. What a coincidence and I look forward meeting the couple to share our experiences in future. Our babies are barely 2 months apart.
What a super late night sleep...
It was about 2:30am when I finally got to bed. I was really shagged out and nearly doze off immediately but I noticed Felin was turning and tossing on the bed non stop and suddenly sits up after about 10 minutes. I forced my eyes open and asked her if she is okay. She said her stomach seems a bit odd. Made me worried again and I sat up too, starts talking to her and gradually try to tap her to sleep.
After quite some time, she simply can't get to sleep and I suggested that we go to the balcony to get some fresh air. We sat there for a while before finally got back to bed. It should be nearly 3:30am or 4am by then. I was really dead tired and I finally told her that I'm really very tired and need to sleep. I dozed off immediately and my plan of jogging in the morning was put off.(actually quite happy. lol) I woke up at nearly 10am with a strange headache.
Oh ya. I heard from another friend that morning that she is conceiving twins as well at 16th week. What a coincidence and I look forward meeting the couple to share our experiences in future. Our babies are barely 2 months apart.
What a super late night sleep...
Monday, June 9, 2014
Feeling bad having to work late again
Felin called me at about 11:30am today but I was at the bank and not convenient to speak. I tried calling her twice during lunch but she did not pick up the call. I was worried that it could be something wrong happening to her or the babies. I then remembered that I have to trust the Lord that he will bring the babies safely and not to worry.
She managed to contact me at about 5pm and she told me that she was so sick in the morning that she nearly fainted. She was so hungry and dizziness kicks in. I felt so helpless and can't do anything. Glad that her sister will be back at home to accompany her till the end of this month. From July onwards, I'll be more worried as she will be alone at home without her sis by then.
I was caught up in a new adviser meeting, followed by a manager's meeting from 2pm to 6pm today. I was busy doing up my financial plan in the morning and after dinner. I was also busy guiding with my adviser's Financial Plan earlier on too. It is now about 12am and I'm still quite far away from completing my own clients FP. I have a few cases yet to be submitted and several pending leads for proposal. There seems to be so many things to do in office and yet I cannot go home and spend time with Felin. Feel bad somehow. Its going to be another day where I can only reach home at 1:30am.
She managed to contact me at about 5pm and she told me that she was so sick in the morning that she nearly fainted. She was so hungry and dizziness kicks in. I felt so helpless and can't do anything. Glad that her sister will be back at home to accompany her till the end of this month. From July onwards, I'll be more worried as she will be alone at home without her sis by then.
I was caught up in a new adviser meeting, followed by a manager's meeting from 2pm to 6pm today. I was busy doing up my financial plan in the morning and after dinner. I was also busy guiding with my adviser's Financial Plan earlier on too. It is now about 12am and I'm still quite far away from completing my own clients FP. I have a few cases yet to be submitted and several pending leads for proposal. There seems to be so many things to do in office and yet I cannot go home and spend time with Felin. Feel bad somehow. Its going to be another day where I can only reach home at 1:30am.
Tau Sa Pau and Roti Prata
Had a great day in Church today as Pastor John Koe preached about Freedom and Bondages.
John 8:32 - And you will know the truth and the Truth will set you free
1 John 4:4 - the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world
True Freedom is the power to do what is right... etc. etc...
We then went to Pu Tien at Tampines Mall for lunch and I was praised for selecting the right place as the Lor Mee and Mee Sua suits her taste bud and she managed to finish the food. Felin can totally reject food if she feels that the smell and taste is not suited for her nowadays. Just 2 weeks ago, she was so in love with the capsicums and Pasley and today, she totally reject both of them. It is a challenge just to cook for her.
We went shopping at Tampines Mall after lunch as I want her to start looking out for her preggy dresses. I know she will be busy and probably more tired in the near future so its probably better to start window shopping.
We then go NTUC Fairprice to buy groceries for Mr Long, our adopted family from Riverlife Family Centre and stayed in his house for about half an hour.
Shortly after coming back at about 4:30pm, I took a short rest, did a bit of gardening and forced myself to gym for jogging and do my sit ups. I need to be strong for the babies to come. I can't be lazy anymore.
After gym, its time to cook for Felin as she was so tired and still in bed after my gym session. I cooked pork porridge and stir fried vegetable for her. Ended up she rejected the pork in the porridge as its overly marinated and the vegetable which she claims to have some strange smell. I ended up eating most of the food I cooked on my own.
After dinner, I quickly vacuum the floor and start mopping. Its my routine job every Sunday evening. After completing them, I'm actually quite tired. Then at 10+pm, she suddenly said that she is hungry again and hope to eat Tau Sa Pau. She seems so pitiful and I drove down to Elias Mall to look for Tau Sa Pau in the coffeeshops but none of them have it. Luckily, I managed to find those pre-packed type in Seng Siong. I also purchased the Roti Prata for her as she craves for it yesterday as well. As long as she can eat, I think its better for me to go buy for her. She is having quite frequent hunger pang and yet feeling nausea and fatigue. So its tough on her as well.
What a long day... I prayed for her before she sleep and now here am I updating my blog for the day feeling fully satisfied. Its a long week ahead. I have plenty of work undone and fear getting clients unhappy with the pace of my work. Can only ask God to help me through the tough week...
John 8:32 - And you will know the truth and the Truth will set you free
1 John 4:4 - the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world
True Freedom is the power to do what is right... etc. etc...
We then went to Pu Tien at Tampines Mall for lunch and I was praised for selecting the right place as the Lor Mee and Mee Sua suits her taste bud and she managed to finish the food. Felin can totally reject food if she feels that the smell and taste is not suited for her nowadays. Just 2 weeks ago, she was so in love with the capsicums and Pasley and today, she totally reject both of them. It is a challenge just to cook for her.
We went shopping at Tampines Mall after lunch as I want her to start looking out for her preggy dresses. I know she will be busy and probably more tired in the near future so its probably better to start window shopping.
We then go NTUC Fairprice to buy groceries for Mr Long, our adopted family from Riverlife Family Centre and stayed in his house for about half an hour.
Shortly after coming back at about 4:30pm, I took a short rest, did a bit of gardening and forced myself to gym for jogging and do my sit ups. I need to be strong for the babies to come. I can't be lazy anymore.
After gym, its time to cook for Felin as she was so tired and still in bed after my gym session. I cooked pork porridge and stir fried vegetable for her. Ended up she rejected the pork in the porridge as its overly marinated and the vegetable which she claims to have some strange smell. I ended up eating most of the food I cooked on my own.
After dinner, I quickly vacuum the floor and start mopping. Its my routine job every Sunday evening. After completing them, I'm actually quite tired. Then at 10+pm, she suddenly said that she is hungry again and hope to eat Tau Sa Pau. She seems so pitiful and I drove down to Elias Mall to look for Tau Sa Pau in the coffeeshops but none of them have it. Luckily, I managed to find those pre-packed type in Seng Siong. I also purchased the Roti Prata for her as she craves for it yesterday as well. As long as she can eat, I think its better for me to go buy for her. She is having quite frequent hunger pang and yet feeling nausea and fatigue. So its tough on her as well.
What a long day... I prayed for her before she sleep and now here am I updating my blog for the day feeling fully satisfied. Its a long week ahead. I have plenty of work undone and fear getting clients unhappy with the pace of my work. Can only ask God to help me through the tough week...
Friday, June 6, 2014
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Medical Checkup
I accompanied Felin to NUH for scanning this morning. Its a 7th week scan meant to ensure that everything is fine. Throughout the MRT ride, she was feeling nausea and I tried talking to her to make her feels better. I'm not sure if my little gesture helps but at least she does not have to exit the train today to vomit. She complained to me that over the last 2 days, she had to exit the train at Lavender and City Hall to vomit.
We didn't need to wait long to see doctor today. I usually waits at the desk when he was scanning but for today, the nurse asked me to come into the scanning area to look at the ultrasound machine. There was 2 heartbeats and its my first time seeing the little ones "Live". I was really comforted to hear that the babies are fine and growing well. The medication, scanning and consultation alone today comes up to about $400 today. If we need to spend this much for every check-up, I'll be quite worried.
My feeling was mixed after leaving the hospital. At one point I was wishing that the babies grow quickly, stay healthy and be delivered fast as I see how Felin is suffering but shortly after entertaining that thought, I start to ponder if I'm ready for the two to come. I still can't imagine how possibly we can handle the whole thing yet.
Just got to take each day at a time.(Its only week 7, OMG!!!)... Am on the MRT while writing this. Now going back home for dinner with Felin before going out for a short appt. She is cooking some soup noodle for me and I'm really hungry now.
Week 7 - My Babies is now size of a blueberry and about 1/2 inch long
The Beginning
I'm starting this blog because I realised that over the past 2 weeks after learning that Felin was pregnant, I became more sensitive towards children and baby stuff. Many things went through my mind and I find it hard to remember as everyday seems so different.
In just two weeks, I learnt that parenthood is a journey, and I want to use this platform to record what has gone on in my mind over this period—my excitement, anxiety, fear, joy, etc.
I will try to update my blog more regularly in the midst of my busy work schedule and, hence, likely to keep each post short and sweet... 2 weeks have already passed, and I have a lot of things to catch up on, but for today, I just to reveal that, yes... Its twins! Twice the joy, Twice the love, but Twice the trouble and Twice the worries. I certainly hope it will be a boy and a girl eventually. That will be perfect... For the moment, just pray hard that mother and babies be healthy.
I'm going for a checkup with Felin tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'll meet the babies. Thanks for reading my first blog post.
In just two weeks, I learnt that parenthood is a journey, and I want to use this platform to record what has gone on in my mind over this period—my excitement, anxiety, fear, joy, etc.
I will try to update my blog more regularly in the midst of my busy work schedule and, hence, likely to keep each post short and sweet... 2 weeks have already passed, and I have a lot of things to catch up on, but for today, I just to reveal that, yes... Its twins! Twice the joy, Twice the love, but Twice the trouble and Twice the worries. I certainly hope it will be a boy and a girl eventually. That will be perfect... For the moment, just pray hard that mother and babies be healthy.
I'm going for a checkup with Felin tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'll meet the babies. Thanks for reading my first blog post.
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