Josiah's nightmare?

I believe babies dream like adults do as they may smile, make some sound or even cry during their sleep. Last week when my in-laws visited us in Singapore, Josiah enjoyed the day so much that he was smiling into his sleep that night because Auntie Wennie made him laughed so much during the day.

But for last night, he had a sudden shout late in the night and cry inconsolably after that. It happened during my shift when I was reading some magazine in my study room. I quickly rushed in to carry and pacify him but failed after 2 minutes and I passed to Felin where she tried her best in various positions but also failed.

As the cry was so loud, the helper also came into our room and asked how she can help. Felin passed to her after about 3 minutes. Surprisingly, Josiah stopped crying within a minute after the helper carried him.

We should actually be happy that the helper is capable but it make us feel bad because it seems that the babies probably recognise the caregiver as his mother. This is not the first time that this happen and our helper seems able to care for the babies better.

We spent much time at work and did not spend as much time with the babies as compared to the helper and my parents. We sometimes are not able to see the babies development as much as we hope to see. For instance, we recently introduced solid food and we cannot see their expression and to gauge whether they like the solids that we prepared for them. Mum and the helper are the ones who fed them.

When I'm home, the babies will be sleeping and when the morning comes, I can only spend an hour with them before I have to leave home. I always have that 舍不得 feeling when I need to say goodbye to the boys in the morning.

As for Felin, her time is even worse because she still have to spend time expressing milk for the babies.

Both of us just sat together and reflect that we must really value the time with the babies especially during the weekends. We felt a bit sad as we are already so stressed and tired with work and yet we can only spend this amount of time with the boys.

My working time had reduced quite a bit as well and resulted in much work undone daily. I need to return home by 10pm daily and continue my night shift till about 2:30am to 3am before waking up at 9am the next morning and leaving home by 10am. I spent almost all the time with the babies during weekends and try not to work.