It has been a fulfilling year with the presence of two of you in the family. Mummy and Daddy had spent about 7 years together as a couple and we are just happy without children where we can focus on our career and go for one or two holidays a year. When we knew that both of you were conceived in May 14, we were excited and nervous as we were unsure how our lives will be changed. Daddy loves to work so much that I reach home as late as 1am daily when mummy is sleeping. I thought my career will hit a roadblock with both your presence because I will have lesser time to work.
Even before both of you came into this world, both of us were constantly worried about your health and your heartbeats heard at the Gynae's clinic always gave us comfort. Mummy really had a tough time carrying both of you at the same time and thats why you must treat her well in future. Fortunately, you were so patient that arrived only on 38th Week 2nd days, beyond what we expected.
When both of you finally arrived on 12th January, we were excited to see your faces and knew that our status had changed to Parenthood. There are no way we can look back now and have to accept whatever challenges that both of you gives. Daddy had never touch babies in my entire life and I had learnt to carry you, feed you, soothe you to sleep, clean your poo and shower you, etc... I may do it only once in my life because I don't think I will ever carry or bath other people's babies except yours maybe in future.
Mummy and Daddy had many headaches at work because of insufficient sleep. You wake up as early as 5:30am to 6am demanding us to start playing with you everyday. We had many quarrels because Daddy always want both of you to fall and get knocked whereas mummy always want to protect you. Daddy wants you to feel the world by touching the leaves, flowers, grass and breathe the fresh air in the open but mummy always fear the mosquitoes and possible bacteria. Daddy wants you to not fear people and be exposed to crowd but mummy always fear the virus that can spread to you. Daddy wants you to start swimming early but mummy fear that both of you will catch a cold. Daddy don't like you to see Doctor but Mummy always afraid that your fever or rash will get worse. Each of you visited the doctors at least 4 times this year.
Daddy give in to Mummy most of the time because I respect and love her. However, we still managed to strike some balance most of the time and our quarrels stopped. I will just wait longer before exposing you to the nature. Daddy can't wait for both of you to grow up and go jogging and relaxing in the park together.
We were stressed at work because both of you are still so young and we have many more years that you need us. Our expenditure increased by double and our monthly surplus are greatly reduced compared to before your arrival. Our dream of getting a residential property to collect rental are somehow delayed till an unknown date. If I am to run 25 round the stadium, I felt that I had just completed merely a round and have 24 more to go. By percentage, its only 5% done. I sometimes feel that its so long and I am so unsure of the many years ahead. But I know that for the love for both of you, I have to continue to run.
Both of you brought tremendous joy to us despite the insufficient sleep, the quarrels, the stress at work, etc... Mummy and Daddy love looking at your peaceful face every night when you sleep and all our stress and uncompleted work in office are amazingly forgotten. We were excited when you are able to call PaPa and MaMa. We were proud when you are able to point the Star on the wall when we asked you "Where the Star is". We were joyful when you learnt to clap your hands and wave good bye to others. Everyday is a surprise and everyday is a new joy though everyday are challenges. Remember that we are kissing you almost non stop everyday for your first year because both of you looks so adorable and we love you so so much...
As of today, we are still worried about both your weights which are below the 10th Percentile of normal babies when both of you still refuse to eat, especially Josiah. We tried all ways to feed you and cook all sort of food that you may like but we were very disappointed that you refuse to open your mouth to eat anything. We couldn't understand why you don't feel hungry when you eat so little.
Today, I just want to say Thank You to both of you because you started our parenting journey. This journey will continue to teach us to be patient. You also teach Daddy not just to be a better father but also to be a better son to Ye Ye and Nai Nai. I must set a good example for both of you to understand what is respect and love for my own parents. They will be weak and frail one day and I will be one day too. I must learn to take care of them when the day comes. I just pray that both of you remain happy and healthy for the whole 2016. This year, we shall see you running around in the house and having better communications with us.
Wahh akhiat your writing is so touching :))
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