We had a very good gathering this year and they managed to see Fire Crackers and Fireworks in Malaysia. We had a good bonding time during this period and even went swimming together.
Both of them are growing really fast and more of their character are gradually shown.
Think they are not that adventerous yet with somehow fear over many things. Like fear of swimming in water, fear of hand dryer in toliet, fear of taking a longer slide, fear of watching firecrackers outside the house, fear of cockroaches, etc... They will just want to hug us tight when they are fearful. I wanted to train them to be more courageous and be willing to take more risk. I feel that they just need a lot of encouragement and we should not protect them for every single thing.
Joshua is getting more humorous and able to make us laugh with his questions and answers. He is very vocal. He can be a bit stubborn and a man of his own ideas. He don't apologise for what he did easily. If he don't feel like doing something like greeting someone he don't know or asking him to pose a photo on a selfie, he will choose to purposely not do it.
As for Josiah, he is a quiet learner and surprise us always. Eg, when a Toyota Vios passed by, he will say "Ye Ye's car". I will like "Wow", he can recognise a Toyota Vios. His speech is still not that clear but somehow improving.
Its also really funny to see both of them talking to each other and looking out for each other but its not easy to handle who to give more attention as both demands for it all the time.
All good things aside, I can't help writing about my various tensions with Felin lately thats affecting my joy as a Father.
One example of the many example will be that she always give me time to read only 1 short book during the night when 1 book takes only 3 minutes at most. I am very annoyed because I can't even have that 3 minutes bedtime story with them. What is the difference between sleeping at 9:30pm or 9:33pm? Why want to restrict so tightly over that 3 minutes?
Due to my 1 book limit, I will choose from my suite of books that I'd purchased for them but will be scolded that I did not read Bible stories for them. I'd told her that maybe we can look for a proper Bible story book that can attact their attention first but I'm accused of not doing my job as a Father to guide them spiritually. Blah Blah Blah, I then refuse to talk too much. The more I talk, the more she angry and she will never say a word of appreciation over what I did. Whatever I do will always seems wrong to her.
Seriously, I feel like just going back office to work and get out of the house whenever we quarreled over such small matters. I feel like I'm just a useless fellow and you are better in everything and might as well let you do everything. I don't know whether a lot of man feel the same and gave up working for the family eventually. All these are just hidden and unknown to the others because everyone will think that we are just a happy family through facebook posts and gatherings, etc...
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